My story is nothing special but I know that it will help someone out there to get through depression or help someone understand a little more on what its like to live with such an illness.

Saturday, June 2, 2012

One Year On

One Year On

Anniversaries are those things we either absolutely love to celebrate or we dread them coming and do all we can to avoid anything to do with them. They can either heighten our excitement or anxiety, stimulate our desire for happiness or crush all we have for life to go on.

How is it that as we get older time seems to fly by without us realising? One year ago we moved up here to 'sunny' QLD. So much has happened since then. Nath and I have had some down and horrible moments but they are far outweighed by the good things!

Recently, Good Friday to be exact, we moved into a house we bought. Not just any old house, but an old secret maternity hospital thats about 100yrs old. Its huge! 5 bedrooms, plus a dining room, storeroom off the kitchen, massive bathroom, 2 loungerooms, a bar and the old verandah which has been enclosed. Its just what we've always wanted, plus its on 3 1/2 acres in a tiny town 40km N/W ot Toowoomba with just over 100 students at the school (yep, kids have had to change schools! Again!) and 700 people in the town. We're half an hour away from any shops which I looooooove!!

Anyway, the 'anniversary' of us moving up here has been good. Im so glad we've moved up here, not once have I questioned the reason why we did, nor have I said to myself 'grrrrr, why why why!!???!!!!"

Its also coming up to 3yrs since hospital. Blah! Lets leave that there where it belongs! I already feel tired and drained, I dont need that memory to play on me. Oh hey, I reckon I still have atleast one visual memory of it a day!!

But its also the anniversary of Snowy's death. Not so happy :( Gunna be one of those ones that will stick in my mind forever as 1st of June 2011 is also the day that 'Bung' went missing in Boronia, Victoria. Ill never forget how it worked out that Snow was found on his 30th birthday - 5th June. Suicide only passes the pain from yourself to your family and friends and everyone that knew you. It never leaves those left behind. Im kinda feeling frazzled tonight and not even sure why Im writing, maybe Ill change the subject.

I found a brown snake's skin in the garden this morning. It wasn't very big, probably 50cm but it wasn't all of it either. So that garden got a full clean out today so he would have nowhere to hide, Ive only got 2 more gardens to clean out, I bet he's in the flag pole garden cos that is full of weeds and is very overgrown! Thank goodness its winter and if I do come across him he'll be sleepy!! That garden is going to become my herb garden, Ive found rocks/pavers that look a little like sandstone so Ive scattered them through the garden. They will kind of seperate the herbies a little and give you somewhere to put ya feet instead of all over the plants.

Im going to start a new blog, my living simply blog....keeping life simple stuff :)